my dear uncle and cousin in law, you 2 have been away for 6 months. i have been good for this half a year. if i dun think about you two. life goes on, and i am always so happy and cheerful around friends, mum, colleagues. i smile and laugh from ear to ear. but i havent recover from it. i havent recover from losing you two. i dun want to recover from losing you two. whenever i smile and laugh, they are still like a wave, a wave that i always worry it would wash you two's memories away. my heart ache while i smile and laugh. i havent got a chance to tell a story of you two. you two are my stars, since i was 6, and are always my stars. the vanish of my stars is like crashing me over by a truck, and, twice. i am all fallen apart. the great things that you two have done to me are not once told, the great stories of you two are not once told. but would it be like a treasure hidden too long? once it was exposed, it will vanish altogether? i hate that i have such bad memories, i feel like every bit of you two are fading....fading so fast that i cant cope. i try my very best to forget every single bit of trivial, so i can spare up my memories, to remember what we have been through together. but is becoming so hard now. i hate myself being so occupied that sometimes i dun even think of you two. i hate the feeling that you two are now only in pictures, in pictures which i never capture you well, in pictures that cant compose the real you, the great you that i have lost.... i want to exchange anything, really anything i have to be with you, but what on earth could i exchange for you, as my every bit is built by you... i try to be strong, i try really hard. and i think i fake it really well. if you two were around, you could tell how hard i tried and might even be masked, thought i am doing well too. i wish, i dun hav to fake it... i miss you, and i love you. if that mean any single thing to you now. love, your spoiled princess | 
